So I have a lot of changes that should be happening in the next days...weeks...months, and I've decided to come back to blogging to document these changes. My way of adapting to these changes starts with controlling what I can, and just taking in the rest. What I can control- my body...sometimes. Now we all know I won't do this with a diet. I love food, and have recently confessed to a dear friend a slight obsession with it. No, first, I signed up for the Warrior Dash. If you don't know what this is, look it up, sounds like a jolly good time. Second, I've started to run to train for it = hilarious! Next, I made the great trek back to Bikram Yoga...for the first time since I was dating that one guy, and took him with me that one time. Thankfully, the hot room welcomed me back with open arms.
There are many, many reasons I love Bikram. Y'all might think I'm nuts, and I very well may be, but that 105 degree room brings me bliss. The discipline of moving my muscles just so, in a rhythm with so many other hot bodies is magical. The focus is on the small steps, like building a base with heels and toes always touching. The sweat that drips and cools those same muscles is so sweet. And the breath that fuels my body, slows my pounding heart, and reminds me that all I have to do when I'm stressed, when I'm at the end of my rope, is just inhale and exhale.
The air I'm breathing at any given moment may be filled with the stink of disappointment, it may be filled with the grief of a family, or may be energized with the hope of new beginnings, but really, all I have to do is just breathe. I'm going to continue to remind myself, and my (hopefully) changing body of that each and every day to come...
